Well, that’s bit annoying

I’ve realized just what I’ve done. Yes. I did.

And i realized I also need some other things to do. Another blog. More use of Vietnamese. Sharpens skills. And have a good, natural, easy-to-follow style of writing. Then you count to the aspect of attractiveness and remember, forget about boredom or fragmentary stuff.

You know you’ve gotta train on this, don’t waste your time! Not much time is left for you darling.

Your life and your passion should be decided and followed in the right way. Don’t forget that. Now you’re on your own (with a bottle friend ahaha)

anyway, the annoying thing is, something you don’t want to remember, so just leave it.




and go to Blogspot. hehe

Since when?

Since when have i forgotten those “anniversaries”?
Since when has my heart stopped feeling so lonely?

Since when have I stopped caring about somebody?

I don’t know. My feelings cannot be as strong as they used to be. Not so innocent as well.

I guess my heart has healed, just a little bit. But now, what? I’ll move to a new city, living on my own (almost), having the craziest experience possible.

My life will be meaningful, useful or just a waste of time?

Do I have enough strength to pull through with my dream? With just English by my side?

I don’t know. I’m in a quandary. This is freaking me out. My future. Oh my gosh.

I won’t have him as well. That’s the truth. That’s painful.


why you have to appear like a flutter of beauty then vanish away so quickly?


When will our bond break?


What if we still keep up this thing and regret in the end?


It’s crazy. You’re crazy. I’m crazy. My heart’s a mess.

And yes, today, i learn that, i got pains. But can i get over them?

I’m not sure. This is not “love” anyway. I dont want you to have any strings attached with me. I’m thinking for your own good.

What about me? I’ll be lonely, for sure. But that’s how life’s gonna be. You have to be independent, you need to be independent.

You’re not that beautiful, so just stay confident in your extravagant outfit. Or you’ll be sorry.

You’re not that talented, so you’ve gotta keep trying.

And there’re always tragedies in life. There’re false judgement. There’re funny people you dont wanna get involved with, or at any time, compare yourself to them.

Shut up. You’ve been trying for so long.

Com’on, get back to reality! People still respect me, in a good way, not that way! 




I’ve never thought holding hands can feel that great.

And yeah, romance’s not really out of reach.

Illuminati orange light shed upon our shoulders and the world just sank in to save the moment. I wish I could hold on to in forever. Nothing more or less. Just that. So right. Kill me!

The world’s stopped revolving in your eyes.

A month has passed

Yeah right. A month. I mean, another.

There’s NO statistics on this blog but i keep on writing, simply because it’s very hard to promote things here, and this is my personal corner as well! Nobody has the right to see my posts.

And, today is a very beautiful day, though i feel a bit tired.

He wrote me a letter. 🙂


Yeah. WE WROTE LETTERS. What else can happen?

It’s late at night and I can’t sleep

Missing you just runs too deep. Oh gosh i wish I could make you see.

Just sometimes I tell myself, I have to go first, I have to say I really really adore you. But sometimes it’s hard for a girl, a broken-hearted one and something else about her that you dont want to know 😦

There’s a very, very dark corner of my soul. Something scary rests in there and never leaves.

I made mistakes, yes I did. I dont want to hurt you. I know we won’t have a particularly bright future but I still hope that we can overcome these barriers and find a way to be together no matter what.

You know that, wherever you are, I will still think of you every step of the way.

I find it hard to live by without having some boys’ or men’s respect and attention. Something inside of me needs that, But you know you’re the only one that I’ll look to in times of trouble. I told you a lot of complicated, baffling, frustrating thing. And unfortunately, you seem to remember my words very carefully and long.

so long I haven’t written anything in my diary, my dear diary. But I need to face everything and I’ve got a lot, a lot of things to do. A lot, a lot of gorgeous books need to be completed. A lot of meaningful films to add meaning to my life. A lot of space in my heart for my passions.

You never ask for any kind of care or affection. But I know you need it, and I’d love to give it you you when I have the time. Your candies and your smile can smooth and calm my whole rough heart with mixed emotions that never seem to resolve.

A lot of relationships to be created and corrected. Some bonding needs to be strengthened. Some skills need to be perfected. And I’ve got so little time left here in this little town.

I will be at university. And i am preparing myself, physically and mentally for the things I have to face afterwards. Nobody says it is easy. Especially without a loyal and wonderful supporter. I hope you can find your own passion, your own dreams and to pursue it whole-heartedly. And i will be with you no matter what.

We need to fulfill our future before anything can happen. And i dont want to make any promises. But i promise to myself : this relationship’s gonna last. 

Everything Just For Me?

Okay, so it’s been very long since i last posted anything here.
I have a habit of mumbling and thinking stupid things inside of my head.

Therefore, these pieces of writing seems irrelevant, incoherent and somehow hard to follow.

These days I’ve been drown in homework, books, novels, and some hard-to-tell emotional issues. :-s
So he has officially crept into my mind and my heart like a crazy thing!!!!!!!!!!!! I don’t know but from now, my future plans can be strongly affected by him.

In restropect, love is uncontrollable and it affects me the most out of many other problems in my life.

My head has gone with the gist of many stories! I’ve started the habit of READING – something I have never given any thoughts to! 
So now I think my concentration is better, I’m more patient and I’m open up to so many great things in the world of books.

The power of words is undeniable! In a way, it can change the whole trait of character of a person. A case in point is… myself. I believe that I will recommend everyone to take up this very useful and precious habit.

Music has been great, but nothing new has come up to me other than Book :))) :”> You know what I mean! 

Recently, I’ve been worried a lot about my ability in English and the chances of it becoming my major in the future.

I can be a translator, I can dig myself into the deepest hole of ambiguity of the language. I can also be a teacher, an inspirer. May be I just need my husband to be a manager and to fulfill my wish of doing some voluntary work in the future.

Sometimes I wish I had the head for natural sciences. But sorry, I don’t 😦
If I had had it, my choices of careers in the future would’ve been this hard to make.

Anyway, it’s singing time and I’ll consider my choices again and again later! 
Bye bye! Blog! You help me a lot with my thoughts and confusion! ♥

5 days

well things have been hard and time has been long. we dont see any sign of each other, which is crazy enough. let’s see if we can take it for 2 or 3 days or not. 

anyway, ive been busy clearing the messing heart of mine that i forgot that i just lost something else. i dont mention it, nobody talk about it, but then now it comes back to me. which is depressing. i hate it. and i’m in the mood.so much worse.

now some indie can really get me there. place of dispair!

>.< after valentine

It’s the sixth day of the new year already. and cause i’m so lazy and do not have much to do, I tend to be relaxed and dont care much about the stack of home work around. The first days of the vacation seemed to be very busy and useful, but now things are crazy. Not to mention yesterday was Valentine’s day and honestly i’ve been through so many emotions that are insane.

I hate the fact that now i have to worry about my future, and i have many other things going on as well. Now i include him in my future and it suddenly becomes so hard to face the relationship on the move but having not any future.

Should i go with the flow?

And am I too lazy to be true? Actually i want to know what people are doing.

And also, it’s raining. it’s crazy. i want to have a little more fun than this before i can get myself into anything.

I am stuck to the computer these days, which is a really really bad thing 😦

Can’t believe how lazy i am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my thoughts are so tangled, as well as my feelings :(((((((((

Ok OK. calm down girl. you’re on your own and you need to know what to do. what to skip, when to focus and what to think!! dont be like this anymore. Now do the english homework first. And then write something on the planning notebook. ok???? get out!!!

Almost there

I’m not so sure about the exact situation between us but he seems not so excited and i am not wholly ready anyway.

It’s almost new year, and some changes, and so on…

I dont know how the new year will be. i hope for the best even though i know god have given me so much i cannot ask for more. but i want things to run smoothly

i need motivation and some kind of good-will. i cannot leave myself become useless.

also my tangled heart of all kinds of experience are about to explode. i tried to analyze and provoke so many things these days. All of those guys that’ve ever been through my life. 

I have beautiful affection for them all. No exception

and the guy of the moment? let’s see. everything’ll not be so romantic as you hoped…

i swear, in half an hour to come, we’ll have nothing to talk about, we’ll be crazy, we’ll not do anything special. there is a distinct possibility that i’ll have to choose the place to go also. it’s just funny! 🙂

anyway, my main aim is to feel the air of the new year, and to wish for new beginnings.

the guy – he’s Nothing! :)) i can control myself.

oh i’m being given another offer! what to do what to do?!?!


🙂 haha. butter is the equivalent of a funny Vietnamese word. I have to “butter” somebody today. It’s been so frustrating I cannot keep up this thing anymore.
We need a good night sleep, and time to study. And also, for my little heart to straighten out and uncover things of the passed days.

Also, he has hidden somewhere! I cannot get in touch with him.
Wondering what has happened. But that doesnt matter much. I’ve got like tons of books to come by in the meantime. 

I can see how people care about my fragile heart while giving me those stories. It’s very very nice of them and i become very touched. When i am down, people surrounded me and lifted me up.

Honestly, i get a bit upset and was hoping things were bad to him. You know who. And i guess things are quite normal, monotonous and useless for him these days. It’s not hard to imagine all of those stuff.

I only want respect from those bitches. That’s all.

Recently i’ve been having an issue with Math actually. it’s hard and totally strange to me. Suffice it to say, my heart got tangled with piles and bunch of emotions, which are hard to get out of.

 So, what to do now? I’m being heavily buttered! >.< Maybe i’ll get no reply. maybe you’ve gone to sleep already. Maybe you’re being hard working. I hate this feeling. Such a crazy all-messed-up teenage crisis – a period i thought i’ve done away with long ago.

So funny, you messed up with my life, can;t you see that? >.<

Alright, suppress and stay calm, lady. We’ve got work to do later. 

Stay FOCUSED please.