5 days

well things have been hard and time has been long. we dont see any sign of each other, which is crazy enough. let’s see if we can take it for 2 or 3 days or not. 

anyway, ive been busy clearing the messing heart of mine that i forgot that i just lost something else. i dont mention it, nobody talk about it, but then now it comes back to me. which is depressing. i hate it. and i’m in the mood.so much worse.

now some indie can really get me there. place of dispair!


>.< after valentine

It’s the sixth day of the new year already. and cause i’m so lazy and do not have much to do, I tend to be relaxed and dont care much about the stack of home work around. The first days of the vacation seemed to be very busy and useful, but now things are crazy. Not to mention yesterday was Valentine’s day and honestly i’ve been through so many emotions that are insane.

I hate the fact that now i have to worry about my future, and i have many other things going on as well. Now i include him in my future and it suddenly becomes so hard to face the relationship on the move but having not any future.

Should i go with the flow?

And am I too lazy to be true? Actually i want to know what people are doing.

And also, it’s raining. it’s crazy. i want to have a little more fun than this before i can get myself into anything.

I am stuck to the computer these days, which is a really really bad thing 😦

Can’t believe how lazy i am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my thoughts are so tangled, as well as my feelings :(((((((((

Ok OK. calm down girl. you’re on your own and you need to know what to do. what to skip, when to focus and what to think!! dont be like this anymore. Now do the english homework first. And then write something on the planning notebook. ok???? get out!!!

Almost there

I’m not so sure about the exact situation between us but he seems not so excited and i am not wholly ready anyway.

It’s almost new year, and some changes, and so on…

I dont know how the new year will be. i hope for the best even though i know god have given me so much i cannot ask for more. but i want things to run smoothly

i need motivation and some kind of good-will. i cannot leave myself become useless.

also my tangled heart of all kinds of experience are about to explode. i tried to analyze and provoke so many things these days. All of those guys that’ve ever been through my life. 

I have beautiful affection for them all. No exception

and the guy of the moment? let’s see. everything’ll not be so romantic as you hoped…

i swear, in half an hour to come, we’ll have nothing to talk about, we’ll be crazy, we’ll not do anything special. there is a distinct possibility that i’ll have to choose the place to go also. it’s just funny! 🙂

anyway, my main aim is to feel the air of the new year, and to wish for new beginnings.

the guy – he’s Nothing! :)) i can control myself.

oh i’m being given another offer! what to do what to do?!?!