It’s late at night and I can’t sleep

Missing you just runs too deep. Oh gosh i wish I could make you see.

Just sometimes I tell myself, I have to go first, I have to say I really really adore you. But sometimes it’s hard for a girl, a broken-hearted one and something else about her that you dont want to know 😦

There’s a very, very dark corner of my soul. Something scary rests in there and never leaves.

I made mistakes, yes I did. I dont want to hurt you. I know we won’t have a particularly bright future but I still hope that we can overcome these barriers and find a way to be together no matter what.

You know that, wherever you are, I will still think of you every step of the way.

I find it hard to live by without having some boys’ or men’s respect and attention. Something inside of me needs that, But you know you’re the only one that I’ll look to in times of trouble. I told you a lot of complicated, baffling, frustrating thing. And unfortunately, you seem to remember my words very carefully and long.

so long I haven’t written anything in my diary, my dear diary. But I need to face everything and I’ve got a lot, a lot of things to do. A lot, a lot of gorgeous books need to be completed. A lot of meaningful films to add meaning to my life. A lot of space in my heart for my passions.

You never ask for any kind of care or affection. But I know you need it, and I’d love to give it you you when I have the time. Your candies and your smile can smooth and calm my whole rough heart with mixed emotions that never seem to resolve.

A lot of relationships to be created and corrected. Some bonding needs to be strengthened. Some skills need to be perfected. And I’ve got so little time left here in this little town.

I will be at university. And i am preparing myself, physically and mentally for the things I have to face afterwards. Nobody says it is easy. Especially without a loyal and wonderful supporter. I hope you can find your own passion, your own dreams and to pursue it whole-heartedly. And i will be with you no matter what.

We need to fulfill our future before anything can happen. And i dont want to make any promises. But i promise to myself : this relationship’s gonna last. 

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Everything Just For Me?

Okay, so it’s been very long since i last posted anything here.
I have a habit of mumbling and thinking stupid things inside of my head.

Therefore, these pieces of writing seems irrelevant, incoherent and somehow hard to follow.

These days I’ve been drown in homework, books, novels, and some hard-to-tell emotional issues. :-s
So he has officially crept into my mind and my heart like a crazy thing!!!!!!!!!!!! I don’t know but from now, my future plans can be strongly affected by him.

In restropect, love is uncontrollable and it affects me the most out of many other problems in my life.

My head has gone with the gist of many stories! I’ve started the habit of READING – something I have never given any thoughts to! 
So now I think my concentration is better, I’m more patient and I’m open up to so many great things in the world of books.

The power of words is undeniable! In a way, it can change the whole trait of character of a person. A case in point is… myself. I believe that I will recommend everyone to take up this very useful and precious habit.

Music has been great, but nothing new has come up to me other than Book :))) :”> You know what I mean! 

Recently, I’ve been worried a lot about my ability in English and the chances of it becoming my major in the future.

I can be a translator, I can dig myself into the deepest hole of ambiguity of the language. I can also be a teacher, an inspirer. May be I just need my husband to be a manager and to fulfill my wish of doing some voluntary work in the future.

Sometimes I wish I had the head for natural sciences. But sorry, I don’t 😦
If I had had it, my choices of careers in the future would’ve been this hard to make.

Anyway, it’s singing time and I’ll consider my choices again and again later! 
Bye bye! Blog! You help me a lot with my thoughts and confusion! ♥